To be perfectly honest, I didn’t notice until yesterday how busy I have been these last few months. Finally getting a chance to watch TV for fun, I run into the most eventful of reminders that I’m alone and feel very rejected.
I mean I’ll never understand why TBS would decide to play Valentine’s Day in the middle of November and not to mention ABC Family playing The Notebook. I’m not amused by your poor choice of movies, but I really that’s not the real problem.
The problem with me being alone this year is I have no reason to complain about any of it. I know how busy I’ve been and I completely overlooked White Horse week this year. Plenty of girls exist but I consciously chose every time to say no to every instinct I had.
This time around the lack of fluttering and the lack of work. I’m not at all unhappy that I’m alone. In fact I have no regrets about how 2013 is ending. All that I had been focusing on in 2012 was wrong and now having experienced what seems like a endless loop of downs, this rejection can only feel like an up.
Here we go – I shall now start the essay on Penguin King Dimody which I promised you forever ago. Excuse my five-year old vocabulary and just enjoy reading your biography!
It’s so much harder now the third time around because there’s so much to say that I’m not sure where I should begin. Back then, all I knew was that you were Tim Lam but a year later, I’m here writing you an essay haha
Let’s start with one of the points that I pointed out the second time I wrote you a short description (I gave you a compliment then because you complained that I was always insulting you). I said I admired your ability to always express yourself, no matter the situation. I still think it’s a great quality and it makes you very unique; however, I think I’ve noticed something I hadn’t seen when I wrote it then. Actually, now, I think you’re pretty bad at expressing what you really feel. You’re always resorting to anger as a way of releasing your emotions, which ends up covering what you’re really trying to express to people and people miss your main point because they feel defensive since you’re yelling at them. You’re always thinking in the moment and you don’t think of future consequences of your actions, which have its bad sides and good sides. I’m not sure if you get what I’m trying to say and you’re probably going to demand an example, but I can’t think of one at this particular moment so you’re going to have to make do with trying to put the words together and seeing if they make sense
Oh, I came up with a second thing to talk about! The first day I ever saw you pull an all-nighter…the day we went to Five Guys! That was the first time you ever told me that you were going to do something dumb in the future and asked that I forgive you if the time comes. You actually repeated this about five to six times that night, and I got really sick of hearing it. You then went to repeat it another dozen times within the past few months, and you also found a quote by Nick from New Girl. I’m not sure if this day will ever come because who can really predict the future? I won’t make empty promises like I won’t ever get mad and never forgive you, but AT THIS MOMENT I am hoping to be friends with you for a very, very long time.
Whew we’re already 500 words in and I’ve barely talked about anything. Timothy Lam is just someone you need time to grow used to (and fall for his charms LOL). What he appears to be isn’t necessarily how he is and it’s very easy to misunderstand him. Plus, he’s always quoting SOMETHING (which explains his colorful vocabulary), so you kind of have to know something about what he’s talking about to follow along with what he’s saying. It takes a lot of time and effort, and I still don’t know what you’re saying sometimes, but that’s when I ask you to explain and clarify.
Anyways, after writing all this, I conclude that I really can’t write about Tim after all because there’s still so much I don’t know and I’m still learning but I hope he’ll be strong, happy boy :D HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
I thought I’d owe it up to everyone to give an explanation for my behavior and why I don’t want to watch Catching Fire. I give the simple excuse being I haven’t finished reading the book and it’s been about two years now. I dare you guys now to track the #Catching Fire tag on my sidebar and see that I did indeed start last January,
I’m usually very good about starting and finishing them. But this is one of the few exceptions. I started reading The Hunger Games for all the wrong reasons. And I’ve grown up so much since then, that watching that movie means to me that I didn’t learned anything at all. I am stronger now, I can decide what to do on my own. I don’t ever need to do something because I thought I wanted to do it.